I wiLL

Sometimes I was wondering why I kept doing this.

Whether it makes me feel pleasant or what?

Whether it makes me feel good?

And guess what? For all of the questions I asked myself, I ended up with a big “NO”

I was wondering why I was the one kept starting thing. Kept approaching my friends while they weren’t. I was the one who was like; about 98% will be the one who greeted my friends and started the conversation at IM. Or skype. Whatever you guys called so.

I hate it, you know.. because it makes me feel like.. like I was desperate to talk to them. Or in bahasa pasar we called it as “terhegeh-hegeh”

Seriously.

But deep inside my heart.. Sincerely, I do, really want to talk to them

Well, actually I greeted them because I want the friendship go on.  I want to catch up things with them. And what did I get in return?

THE FEELING OF UNEASINESS AND DISAPPOINMENT.

the feeling even worse if the chat ended without a single sayonara

Maybe I should stop.

Yeah. I should stop greeting them the way I did. I will. i willstop greeting them..

I wiLL sToP. ItS KiNdA PrOmIsE oF MiNe..

p/s- I think I know why I felt so. Maybe it’s because I forget to put HIM in this little thing I’ve done. . i regretted it. I need to rethink. Rethink, NAI’MAH!