kena tipu

"korang tau tak abangcik (adik saya) kena tipu haritu? " kata mak sambil menoleh ke belakang di mana aku dan abgcik duduk. Kami baru lepas menjamah satay kajang sebelum meneruskan perjalanan menghantar adikku ke asrama tempat kerjanya.

"ha?? ye ke mak?" aku menoleh sekilas pada bangcik sebelum mak menyambung. Abgcik menoleh ke luar tingkap kereta sambil menggaru kepalanya yang tak gatal.

"Dia kena tipu haritu. Beli handphone apa ntah yg latest tu online. Dah bayar habis masuk account orang tu tp barang tak sampai2 lagi. ayah dah marah sbb tak bincng or tanya ayah dulu" jelas mak

"hish, bangcik ni.... beli kat website mana?" tanyaku, terkilan

"@$#$#%%^4" balasnya bersahaja. (saya tak ingat pulak nama website yg disebutnya)

"hishh.. lain kali kalau nk beli ke apa ke.. tanya lah kak imah ke.. ayah ke.. kakno ke.. " bebelku lagi

"dah buat report ke belum?" tanya kakno yg sedang memandu

"aritu abg eddy (abg ipar kami) tak sihat.. so tak pergi pun balai buat lagi. Malaslah" balas bangcik lagi.

"dia ada simpan resit semua dah. orang suruh pergi balai report tak mau. memang lah tak boleh dapat balik dah rm500 tu. tapi sekurang-kurangnya orang lain nanti tak terkena" mak bersuara lagi.

"senang2 je orang tu tipu duit anak mak ni. Ingat senang ke bangcik nak cari rm500 tu bagi cukup? sampai kena keje pakai maskot masa hari jadi budak2 kat marybrown tu. panas-panas semua tu. kawan-kawan kerja dia pun tak ada siapa yg mau" tambah mak lagi

aku menoleh memandang bangcik. rasa sayu mula bergayut di hati.

"ye ke mak...? kesian adik kak imah ni.." kata ku sambil mengusap kepala adikku perlahan.

"iya... bla bla bla" cerita mak lagi tentang betapa susah adikku mencari duit. Tubir mata saya dah mula rasa panas.

"kesian adik kak imah ni..." kata ku berulang kali sambil mengusap kepala bangcik. Bila saya rasa hampir menangis mendengar cerita mak, lalu nada suaraku berubah kepada gurauan. Sebenarnya saya tak nak termenangis dalam kereta tu.

"kau ni dah kenapa?" kata bangcik pura2 rimas dengan perbuatan saya. tapi jelas suaranya sebak. Sebak bila saya mengusap kepalanya dan bersimpati dengan nasibnya.

"saja.." balasku sambil tertawa

"eleh... marah konon padahal dah sebak abes dah tu. nak nangis dah tu terharu kak imah buat macam tu" seloroh mak lagi. kakno turut bersetuju. Bangcik tersenyum senyum sambil memandang ke luar tingkap

p/s: saya harap orang yg tipu tu akan dapat balasan yg setimpal

on one nice day..

We walked together side by side. There were a lot of people in the mall that day. I looked around, thinking weather to buy Jco donuts or KFC as my dinner.

"Ehhh..!" suddenly she looked at somewhere, fixing her eyes. I saw nothing. All I saw was JCo bakery. She kept quiet and look at that direction again. I tried to look again, puzzled.

"Oh... Mr.F.." I said, smiling. A guy we knew; next to him walked passed us. Did not bother to say hi. Or maybe he was wondering if he should. Mr F stop and we chatted for a while. It only takes a few minutes before we continued on our way.

When Mr F walked away quite a distance she looked at me.
"Are you okay?" she asked with a guilty and worried face.
"Yes, I am. Why did u asked?" frowning, wondering what was she meant by that.
"I am sorry. I felt guilty when i greet them. I thought you are not still not okay with that guy yet. Aren't you?"
I smiled. Brightly. Now I understand her worries.

"No, not at all. I am fine, really. Whatever happened in the pass is long gone. I really don't bother about it anymore, not in a sec! " i said while looking straight into her eyes.

"He meant nothing to me. In fact, I am glad there is nothing between us" She look at me with a weak smile.

"Then why didn't he bother to say hi or at least act normal in front of you?"  I shrugged. I don't have a good answer for her question.

"I don't know. Maybe because I am not beautiful. This "fierce" face of mine maybe frighten him as he used to say all the time before... he could say hi, you know? but he choose not to. And i am fine with that tho. Plus once i noticed a jealous glance from her gf just because he greet me"

"really??"
"yeah"

I looked far away. Thinking of what happened to me before. Really it was a "stupid" experience that once turned me into a zombie.

"hmmmphh.. whatever, let bygones be bygones" I said and happily walked into KFC.

cup of coffee, glass of water

When things are not going the way you hope it would be, it surely felt demotivated.

Then you would say to yourself various, random things just to bring yourself away from the real issue. Or in your words: being positive. Husnuzon.

While the fact is: THIS ISN’T EASY

As of now you just hope you can write random things. A poem, a short story, a novel, be whatever you wanna be but this.

You fingers moving slowly on the keyboard, typing words by words while your eyes are on the screen. It’s so quiet; you are alone. The only sound you hear is the sound from the table fan. You could smell the hot coffee which is just a palm reach. Your brain started to wander around.... travelling various part of the world.. imaging beautiful things and scenery....

Then you suddenly stop.

Oh you are still in your own room. Not going anywhere. And you are still a medical student. Who is upset about things. 

The cursor blinking on the screen but you could not care less.

You take a deep breath….. and let it out slowly.

And you see a cup of hot coffee,  WHICH IS HALF FULL. then you already knew what you should do:

FILL IT THE REST OF THE WAY

p/s: Truth is, that “YOU ” is actually “ME”

unforgettable: admitted to A&E

i called the clinic and ask for the meds i was on. apparently i was MOST PROBABLY allergic to CIPROFLOXACIN. 

these are the list of its side effects that i've experienced. the bold one was the most apparent symptopms happening to me.

. 

More common

·         Diarrhea

Rare

·         anxiety

·         blurred vision

·         burning, crawling, itching, numbness, prickling, "pins and needles", or tingling feelings

·         change in walking and balance

·         chest tightness or heaviness

·         chills

·         clumsiness or unsteadiness

·         confusion

·         continuing ringing or buzzing or other unexplained noise in the ears

·         coughing

·         difficult or labored breathing

·         difficulty with moving

·         dizziness, faintness, or lightheadedness when getting up suddenly from a lying or sitting position

·         drowsiness

·         fast, irregular, pounding, or racing heartbeat or pulse

·         feeling of warmth

·         fever

·         hearing loss

·         increased blood pressure

·         increased thirst

·         irritability

·         itching

·         lack of appetite

·         large, hive-like swelling on the face, eyelids, lips, tongue, throat, hands, legs, feet

·         loss of interest or pleasure

·         nausea and vomiting

·         nervousness

·         nightmares

·         noisy breathing

·         numbness of the hands

·         puffiness or swelling of the eyelids or around the eyes, face, lips, or tongue

·         rash

·         redness of the face, neck, arms, and occasionally, upper chest

·         redness of the skin

·         sensation of skin burning

·         shakiness and unsteady walk

·         shakiness in the legs, arms, hands, or feet

·         shortness of breath

·         skin rash

·         sleeplessness

·         slow or fast heartbeat

·         small red or purple spots on the skin

·         sweating

·         swelling

·         swelling of the face, feet, or lower legs

·         trembling or shaking of the hands or feet

·         trouble concentrating

·         unable to sleep

·         unusual drowsiness, dullness, tiredness, weakness, or feeling of sluggishness

·         wheezing

Incidence not known

·         high fever

·         redness, soreness, or itching skin

·         sore throat

Less common

·         sneezing

for more details: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/drug-information/DR602795

unforgettable: admitted to A&E3

the nearest hospital felt too far to reach. my heart was pounding too fast.
cut all the whats not and stupid things at the counter then i was transferred to the yellow zone. they assessed my lungs and ask some questions but i cant talk anymore. i cant think straight. i felt dizzy. luckily my friend is by my side and helping me answering the questions. they take my right hand asking me to make a fist. they want to put a green granula and administer hydrocortisone stat. i used my energy to fist my hand. the doctor cannot find veins in my oedematous hand. they tried to do on my left hand. but i could not lift up my left hand
anymore. cant make a fist anymore. i was weak. i felt more and more dizzy. my throat felt so dry and i cant talk. all i was thinking a that time is i want to lie down or sit. i felt giddy and i thought i could faint anytime. "uwekkk!" i almost vomit.

"wait adik, sabar. nak muntah ye?" said the doc. i dont know whats the meds they gave me but there are 2 meds. one of it surely hydrocortisone stat. thats what the last thing i heard. i want all of this to be overrr!

after hydrocortisone was in my system i could feel sudden relief from the super intense itchiness. my friend support me and brought me to a chair to sit.

*** malas nak habiskan cerita ni. whatever it is, memang tak boleh lupa. in next post i'll post about all the drugs and the list of its side effects.

unforgettable: admitted to A&E 2

i jump off the bed and stand in front of the mirror. I feel "funny" things happening to my face, and all over my body. I stood there, scratching here and there. I took a close look of my face. in a blink of an eye my skin changes drastically. There was a big papule like swelling under my right eyes too. "eh, is my skin always like this? i never notice this!" i said to myself. My forehead changing. my nose become bigger and harden, as well as my cheeks. everything occurred too fast. it was like seeing myself turning into a monster!! SERIOUSLY YO!

i started to breathe heavily. My vision started to look blurry and there was funny sound in my ears. I took off my clothes to change. i knew i had to go to emergency dept ASAP. whatever it is, this is not funny business! while my hands and body started to tremble, i was so anxious that i couldnt make it to hospital. i called my friend on the phone  but she couldnt understand a thing i said. she rush to my room shocked to see my condition and my changing face. "drug allergy!" i said right after i opened my door. it was hectic. she rush back to her room, wearing whatever she wore that time and we jump into her car and rushing to hospital. in the car i almost cried. i cant feel my fingers and hand. my body was chilly red and soooo hot. my temperature spike up. i pull up my sleeves only to see my hands changing in a very rapid seconds. i almost scream due to the ichiness, heating of my body temp, numbness etc. but i tried my best to calm down. i istigfar a lot along the way...

unforgettable: admitted to A&E 1

yes, it was an unforgetable events of my life; was admitted to emergency dept of Melaka General Hospital last friday evening.

3pm
I went to our uni panel clinic to get some medication for my quite severe pharyngitis. I could say, it was a chronic one since i already developed granules on my congested pharynx, greenish sputum with with blood streak. Must be because of the severe cough. oh, and flu also. no fever tho. So.. a night before was terrible, i cannot sleep since i kept coughing and due to nose blockage. I skip the posting and the evening class just to go to clinic. As usual, being lectured by the doc because of late seeking for medical attention.. bla3 and were prescribed 4 drugs to go with. Loratadine, bromhexine, cough syrup, an UNKNOWN antibiotic, and pharynx lozenges. I admit it was partly my fault for not asking the name of the Abx but i couldn't care less at that time. and in fact, i didn't actually notice they didn't mention the name. *Dah la kena mintak tlg orang hantarkan ke klinik, nak lama2 pulak. takut menyusahkan orang je.. huhu *

615pm
since i havent eat all day, i had nasi goreng that i bought at gazebo before i took the meds. As a 'ritual' everytime before took it i read the name. that was when i realised the Abx didnt hv a name and i thought i never take a white pills of Abx previously. but i did took it anyway, thinking i want to be better faster. I took it all around the same time. it didn't take long for an allergic reaction to set in.

around 2mins after that i started sneezing continuously. As a medical student i cant help myself from "self assessment". I was thinking, 'wow, i did sneeze around 10 per sneeze which defines allergic sneezing'. but it couldnt be right... coz i am not allergic to anything. not the meds for sure" and i smiled.

Seconds later i started to feel itchy on my back and on my hand. Gosh.. i felt so annoyed. i just change the bed cloth what could cause me felt so itching at that time?? must be mosquito biting me. its a dengue area anyway. so i took an ointment. squeeze it out and started to apply it on my itchy skin. in a few seconds it gets more intense. WTHH??! i almost shouted.

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