like i care?

This whole crap things make my heart icy cold.
You have done enough to me, I cannot bear to take it any longer.
So  I do what i should do long time ago,
I'll let you do everything as you please, I would not bother anymore because you always found my good intentions was nothing but annoying.  So go on, and do not ever ask me to listen up to you anymore because I have take you out of my mind. Please do as you please.

oh God, I should listen to my dad long time ago for not trusting you as i did. for be friend- so fonder with you. good for nothing. but tears always rolling down my cheeks seeing you doing things that should not be done.

so now i think it is the best. you take your own path, i would not bother. like i care?! hmmph.

Allah give me strengh. show us good path..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK :)

MAK!! (JALILAH BINTI DESSAH)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK!!

BE STRONG. STAY SMILE. TQ FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT MUM FOR ME.

MOGA ALLAH PERMUDAH SEGALA,

MOGA ALLAH RAHMATI

DAN MOGA TERCAPAI DAN SELAMAT PERJALANAN UMRAH KELAK.. AMINN~

ketupat daun palas

Jumaat ni dah nak balik ke India semula. Perasaan? hmmpphh..

Kaknor sahaja bakal hantar saya ke airport nanti. Katanya dia akan blah je nanti lepas drop saya kat situ. Mak nak ikut hantar pun tak boleh sebab katanya nk terus pergi office semula.

Arhab dan Azhad (adik2 jagaan saya) tak dapat saya jumpa sebab mereka masih di kampung. Nenek mereka baru meninggal semalam. Aduhh.. seriously saya rindu sangat dengan celoteh mereka. sangat2!!

Saya dan mak baru selesai buat ketupat daun palas kegemaran saya. Raya yg lepas tak dapat saya makan ketupat kegemaran saya ni sebab daun palas dah sold out kat KL. Kali ni mak ambil daun palas dari kebun arwah tokwan masa kami balik kampung minggu lepas.

Highlight cerita malam ni, masa tengah isi pulut dalam ketupat tu saya bergurau lah cakap,
"kelakar pulak masa raya haritu tak jumpa ketupat, tak dapat buat.."

mak jawab, " tak pela... nanti raya imah tak balik dah.. rasalah ketupat ni awal2.."

gulp! ttbe sayu..

ALAS

It’s been a while since I put myself under the radar. But I like it this way. Although I admit I do hope you me ask how I am doing. Then I might be the happiest person on earth for once during this holiday. It might wash out everything that I hates and makes me sad. Ops, now I’ve been thinking. Why you? And you know what I figure out? It’s because I found you are a really sincere person. But I still afraid I might be betrayed again. But Ya Allah.. I pray to You hoping for this can be avoided forever. Or else, I might end ups trust nobody. *tak tahu berapa kali dah ayat ni diulang*

I might say I’ve done nothing much, but it doesn’t apply to my brain.

Sadly whatever I planned doesn’t come smoothly. Or frankly said, not even worked.

Well, looks like everything just going to be completed once I back to Malaysia again, which means about a year later. Whilst about the study thing... The result for block 2 exam had come out, and as I guess I was doing badly; but no need to be so grieved for a long time. Wake up nai’mah! Wake up pleaseeee!! Yet.............. I haven’t come out with any brilliant idea on how to study smart *sobs sobs* (T_T)?

Ok. jom tukar version pulak. BM

Nak senaraikan ke apa yg saya buat sepanjang cuti ni? Tak delah menarik mana pun..

1.       Plan nak ke mysore terbengakalai sebab ada strike otw ke sana. Jadi akhirnya saya main bowling dan shoping lagi untuk 2^nd time kat Bangalore (sehari sebelumnya dah main dah shoping jugak.

2.       Rancangan nak masak2 setiap hari untuk family tu x berjalan lancar sgt, sebab family saya dah jarang makan sama2. Masing2 busy. *sad* tp sempat jugaklah masak yg simple2, kurma telur, nasi lemak, cek mek molek,  sardine, bawal sweet sour, kek coklat moist, nasi goreng, macaroni, etc

3.       Dah 2 novel saya khatam, itupun sebab byk gangguan.  Novel2 tu best sangat! ^^ secara tak langsung belajar fanconi anemia via DARKEST FEAR (Harlen Coben, author of Promise Me)  + pasal orang2 yg kerja dekat call centre via ONE NIGHT AT CALL CENTER (cheetah bhagat, tempe’s novelist)

4.       tolong mak jaga adik2 jagaan tu- arahab, azhad,qaleesya

5.       bab2 kemas rumah sidai baju semua tu biasa je la, kan

6.       SHOPPING! Oppss.. terlebih belanja la rasanya. Tapi puas hati sangat2 sebab shoping kat msia ni, in fact, sangat murah esp masa sale ^^

*seronok shopping selepas beberapa tahun tak berkesempatan..

7.       Balik kampung. Merata2 jalan. Dari utara ke selatan, ke barat, etc. Seminggu kot. Mandi kat teluk senangin, ziarah kubur2 arwah tok, opah, tokwan, tok guru mak etc. Kebun getah & rumah arwah tokwan,  Seronok jumpa sedara mara. Walaupun bosan sikit sebab dok tadah telinga dengar mak sembang2 je, tapi sometimes I learnt A LOT about life! ^^

8.       Ha, ini saya buat point baru. Pukul 11.30pm-1am, cipta sejarah la sebab saya g cinema waktu2 camni. Dengan adik saya. Sepupu sepapat jugak. Ha, sejarah tu! tengok pulak cerita idaman saya, Merong Mahawangsa tu. memang history habis. hehe

9.       Dan hari ini disini saya, baru balik dari kampung semalam.

Saya nk cerita lagi, tapi takut korang bosan pulak dengar saya berceloteh... so.. babai semua. *macam la ramai yg tahu n baca blog ni pun.. =P